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[17 Dec 2005|12:24am] new LJ - __veronica i would have added everyone right now, however, i'm too fucking tired so add me. today was amazing. my best friend knows exactly why. i found my keys today! yes yes yes. i found them because i dropped the spare in the same exact spot where they were hidden. i got a letter from my brother.he never ceases to amaze me. i hate myself for not writing to him as often as i used to. oh and just a reminder to everyone..Sunday is Tracy's bday. $#@&!

update bitches [01 Dec 2005|09:28pm] [ mood | confused ] damn you tracy for making me come to this site again. i miss posting pictures of stuff and what not though. there are so many things i'm looking foward to.. -sunday so i can hang out with tracy & julie. i havent seen either of them in a very long time. -going to HOB with amanda -my nephew being born. -vacations next year really i can't wait until i turn 18. i feel like im suffocating here at home. my parents make me pay all of my own bills including rent..but i'm still treated like im 10. its fucking nuts. i know that within the next year there will be alot of changes. most of my family will drift apart..but i think whatever occurs will be in everyone's best interest. it's hard to describe the mood ive been in for the past month or so. i'm happy about a lot of things and really confused about a million things. i keep putting a lot of distance between other people and myself but i want to stop doing that as much. blah oh and i'm growing out my hair. sweet. mmkay bedtime now. 5 +| $#@&!

[04 Nov 2005|10:43pm] [ mood | cold ] ohhh man. i never use this thing anymore. not really a bad thing though. i suppose. i've been really happy with everything lately. soo halloween was really good. i really liked my fairy dress & i saw a lot of people i hadn't in a while. Zach and I went to disneyland on wednesday. so much fun :o). i liked taking him because he hadn't been in a while so it was kind of like taking a little kid for the first time. we only stayed until about 5 though. we got there when they opened and it was kind of dead. the most we stood in line for was about 10 min. after disneyland we stopped by and visited Julie at work and then hung out in redlands. reeally good day. i have work really early tomorrow. damn. i miss all of my friends that i dont get to talk to or see as much because of work. i love you. $#@&!

[10 Oct 2005|11:48pm] yesterday i watched WAITING with amanda,nick,james, and his two friends ohhhh man it was funny. and tonight i watched IN HER SHOES with my mom, sisters, and amanda and her mom. it was good actually. i thought i was gonna hate it. this weekend was amazing. yay for being happy. $#@&!

[08 Oct 2005|11:57pm] this weekend has been so freaking great. i really love amanda and nick and perryn and john and james and julie andddd most importantly the marshmallows jon brought to the bon fire tonight. basically i love everyone i saw over the weekend. amanda and i planned a badass birthday surprise for nick. julie and i ate poisoned burritos and almost got killed running across the street. i finally met prima's husband justin. he kicked me in the ribs hah. the little shin dig in laguna beach tonight was amazing. my friend sean's parents are super rich so we got to hang out on a private beach. i think perryn miiiiiiiiiight have put something in my mango fiesta juice. what i do know is that i want my fucking sister to bring me my soup already. i think im going to visit james' new appt tomorrow okay thats all. i love you. $#@&!

[02 Oct 2005|08:56pm] [ mood | cheerful ] "and then there was you reconstructing my faith not with poems or flowers just you - filled with your errors and defects yet you were able to stand on your own two feet and i feel something in you, something in us both that makes me insist that when i look into the iris of your eyes, God doesn't cease to exist you make him alive you make him alive life is a collection of memories but i can't remember anything being quite like you not even the redness of your lips the scent of your hair or the color of your skin don't think that if you leave ill let go you are the best thing that ever happened to me through good and bad and everything more and i feel something in you, something in us both that makes me insist that when i look into the iris of your eyes, God doesn't cease to exist you make him alive you make him alive" $#@&!

[01 Oct 2005|11:22pm] "If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, and above." Gia is a good movie. sad..but good. i have been so exhausted every day for the past month or so. man. i don't have time to worry about ridiculous little things. my friends and family make me happy. work is gradually becoming less stressful. sort of. woo yay. $#@&!

[20 Sep 2005|11:36pm] so i'll just be up front about it I'm sorry for upsetting you, Tracy. I wish you would understand that the reason i came home to tell you wasn't to be a bitch about it. I wanted things to be okay. I care about you too much as a friend to let something rediculous fuck it up. we've been through worse. & i know that we've grown REALLY distant. and i really regret it. you and i both know all the crazy shit that has gone on within these past few months. either way, i don't need to tell you how important you are to me because i hope you already know. & i know that you're upset. there's nothing i can do to change that i just want to apologize for how things have been these past few months and say that what happened wasn't me trying to go behind your back, or anything like that. 1 +| $#@&!

[15 Sep 2005|07:45pm] if i could run away to anywhere out of this country, i would. $#@&!

[10 Sep 2005|11:44pm] tonight was fun. i hung out with julie, sara & chon for a while. i kept getting called a nipple & i almost got hit by a car to save julie's XXX tennis ball. haha i love those kids. i really want cockboy tracy to quit being gone. that little shit. & i really want james to be home already. dustin is a fucking jackass. i need to use my disneyland tickets. hmm. oh i decided that i hate cute couples. teeheh. jk. sorta. tomorrow i think im going to hang out with my mom or some shit. the rest of my family went to vegas. but um i kinda want to hang out with tracy or go to victorville to see that slut lauren. fershur dude. 2 +| $#@&!

[02 Sep 2005|08:15am] I really miss Tracy & I really miss James. come home already! 1 +| $#@&!

[19 Aug 2005|12:03am] [ mood | happy ] today is my birthday! yay! 9 +| $#@&!

[17 Aug 2005|09:20pm] so my brother wrote to me today. for the first time since he went back. he is coming home sunday. i am really, really scared. i hope he is okay this time. $#@&!

say what youre thinking right now [08 Aug 2005|10:26pm] this picture is kind of weird. but it's cool because i look kinda thuggish. i'm pretty much in love with someone right now. 7 +| $#@&!

[31 Jul 2005|09:43pm] [ mood | calm ] so my car was making this horrible sound and it reminded me of a UFO. so i took it back to the shop that fixed it after my accident but they told me that it was a problem with my engine and that i had to take it back to the dealer to have it checked out. soooooooooooo finally like a week later i took it to the dealer and they told me that when the accident happened all kinds of shit spilled out from my car and got all over the bottom of the engine and were destroying it and as i continued to drive my car after it was returned to me from the body shop it just got worse and worse. those fuckers at the dealership were soooooooooo obnoxious. after a 1/2 hour of me being there they told me the problem & the mechanic i talked to told me that he was gonna go check to see exactly what needed to be done to my car and how much it would be & that he'd be right back. that was cool..but i waited 2 fucking hours to have a bunch of annoying mechanics walk around and say stupid things like "i think i know you somewhere" rather than finding out anything about my car. & once i finally got ahold of a supervisor he was able to magically get an answer for me in less that 2 minutes. hkjdhdkjfg ahh phones ringing hmm work tomorrow.stupid! 3 +| $#@&!

[27 Jul 2005|11:58pm] fuck me man i'm really happy. 3 +| $#@&!

[25 Jul 2005|05:16pm] [ mood | content ] i feel so much better yay for dykes & essays! 7 +| $#@&!

[24 Jul 2005|11:01pm] 1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you. 2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you. 3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be. 4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you. 5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you. 6. I will tell you what color you remind me of. 7. Put this in your journal 3 +| $#@&!

dear tracy [19 Jul 2005|05:29pm] ILL SHOW YOU telling me to not say ill show you 1 +| $#@&!

illlllllllll show you updates [16 Jul 2005|10:16pm] [ mood | okay ] so my good friend darcy put herself in the hospital:o[. she is one of the most amazing people to be around. lately she & her husband shaun have been having a lot of problems & she decided to move in with her mother. I'm not sure why she chose to leave shaun when all her mother does is put her down. she tells darcy that she is fat and needs to stop eating. oh and that if she wasn't such a bitch maybe things could work for her and shaun. so she tried to kill herself. i really hope she gets everything figured out.i went to see her today and she just feels like a dumbass. i also saw dustin for a bit today. that pissed me off. things are still fine between us. as much as i'd like to hate him, i cant. then again i really suck at holding grudges against anyone. he is one of my best friends though & im glad i still have him in my life. ummmmmm today tracy told me to not say "ill show you.." & it pretty much made me want to shoot her in the face. oh & i threw up a little in my mouth. that little shit. :o] i miss hanging out with her as often as i did. fuck. & i really wanted to go to the movies or something with james but i was busy most of today & didnt call him until after he was already doing something. daaaaamn. i hope he doesnt move far away. that would suck. a lot. ummm im on vacation next week!! vegas, disneyland, & stuff..yess :o] 5 +| $#@&!

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